Anyone else had a pig of a week?
Frustrated
Stressed
Annoyed
Everything going wrong
With the car, computer, all electrical devices
Relationships strained
And everyday it’s been like walking in quicksand

It got so bad on Tuesday that I found myself literally about to explode with irritation and had to get outside for a run. It felt good to feel the air on my skin and to look up at the sky. I began to think about the direction of my life and knew in that moment that everything was about to change.

What do I want?
Where am I going?
What are my intentions?
And what is truly important to me?

I could feel the ground underneath me shift
The energy around me pulling me back, slowing me down, forcing me to look at everything in my life
And we are all feeling this
The air is thick with it
Yet this manifests differently for each of us

I ran and ran, pushing myself through an invisible shield that has been holding me back for years
I could feel it dissolve with every pounding foot
As the sweat poured from my skin, I could sense old patterns falling away and the ‘new’ me emerging

In my next meditation I had a profound shift
I realised that I was wanting things to be a certain way
And that in doing so I was ‘fixing’ aspects of my life
As soon as we do this we have taken out the ability of true flow, and limited this part of our lives. We’ve shut down its potential and withdrawn the magic of what ‘could’ occur

Then
I saw I was being tested!
Oh the cheeky quantum
It was pushing me way out of complacency
Taking away my comfort blanket and making me stand out in the cold, naked and alone (well that’s what it felt like!)

I had to question my beliefs
I had to dig deep within and ask myself what I really wanted
The uncertainty was uncomfortable
It was unsettling as I was awoken from my usual calm demeanour
But I knew this was needed
I knew that the reason it was happening was because I was READY

Are you experiencing extreme struggle right now?
Are you feeling as if the rug is being pulled out from under your feet?
ALL CHANGE
Nothing is going to stay the same
And it’s not meant to
This is a time for reflection, decluttering, release, and
Many of us are being FORCED into this rumination
For only then do we have the space to redefine our path,

Luckily I know how to move out of the stranglehold of anxiety
I’ve learnt how to connect with my deep innermost needs
And have in place extreme self-care regimes
I awoke on Wednesday feeling calm and grounded once more
The disquietude of the day before transcended

However, everything had changed
There was a newness in the air
And I’ve been enjoying it like a new dress;
Catching sight of the new me in the mirror
Gasping at what I see
For the reflection is strong, calm, sure and ready for anything…

*this blog was first published in March 2018

Member Quote Of The Day.

In this section you will read something that has been said by one of the Quantum Sobriety Online Programme members over on the very lively private forum: